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When I turned 18, I thought that I would magically feel different since I am now a legal adult, but I still feel like a lost child trying to find their mom in the supermarket. I thought everything was magically going to click for me and I was finally going to take on my responsibilities at hand. But turning 18 just showed me how wrong I was and that I need to drastically prepare for life on my own before I leave for college. 

Finishing my college applications and submitting them have allowed me to branch off and determine what I want to do with my life after high school. But it’s made me realize I have absolutely no idea what I want to do. I’m being pulled into multiple directions, my dad tells me to go into sales and be like him. My mom tries talking me into becoming a teacher or nurse because I like kids and I like to help people. But the reality of the situation is that I don’t even know what I’m good at, I do well in the majority of my classes but nothing really catches my eye. My friends already know what they want to be, either to be a lawyer, doctor, engineer, nurse or businessman and I’m just stuck in purgatory.

I’m just hoping that college will allow me to get a better understanding of what I want to get out of the world and will allow me to discover my true passion and calling in life. But I guess turning 18 gave me the greatest gift–besides my Gucci belt– an understanding that I am not always going to know what to expect but that I should live in the moment and not worry about everything. I am not always going to be able to control every situation in my life but I believe that everything happens for a reason and that I should accept what life throws at me.